Bitter in life
Who is the boss, me or my job?
I got a job recently and have just passed the training period. It’s a very good one that promises me a manager position to take care a whole wic store and teaches me a lot about a system in governmental retailing business. I did my first ten days with so much new experience and not much but decent start-up salary.
It’s much better than many other Vietnamese business job. No acetone and stink legs, no standing for twelve consecutive hours, no work like crazy assembly, not require good communication skill or frequently in English, full time but all in weekdays and a very willing to train employer. It can be a perfectly fit position for me this time. I like it and my co-workers too.
But in another aspect, I have to handle some strange function which proceeded and ended up badly. I felt kind of disappointed and exhausted for those troubles. Ordering and delivering inventory ended with overcharge. Managing electronic devices messed up with lack of wire and cord. Fixing devices cost me hours of calling for help and some of them still not any function after all. Hour of driving here and there empty up my gas container and my health quite fast. I felt hopeless and upset.
Every single evening, I take a nap at 7:30 or 8:00PM, to fulfill for the lack of night sleep. No fully rest at noon and staying late and be waken up early in bad mood have sucked up all my strength. More and more faults come every neglected minutes.
And the worst, when I back to my blogging business, it’s no more motivation or emotion to produce quality or inspirational contents. My plan soon becomes vague and my topics start to lose focus. Not enough, time and goal messed up, life messed up, I’m just some steps away from totally broken.
Hey, wake up! Who is the boss, me or my job? Not and never my job, for sure. It’s time to stand up, reorganize my own life, turn it into a more productive and energetic tune. That’s the mission of my life.
Even though I need money, I have another week to get balance and improve productivity. Or else, I’ll quit this amazing job, find myself another one, risk losing and giving up something for this mistake. Take it or leave it. That’s all.
God bless me with more strength and smart, please. Thank you God